b-utter-fly

holy week not so holy

2008-03-31T02:03:00.001+08:00

oath taking

2008-03-31T01:59:00.000+08:00

me and nigel @ the ball

2008-03-31T01:56:00.000+08:00

wow... its been 7 months since my last post

2008-03-31T01:27:00.002+08:00

a lot has happened in the seven months that iv missed blogging...
im still the crazy, bubbly, whacked girl that most of you know...
well august nothing great happened coz i cant seem to remember what happened back then..
september i could remember going to my bf's friends birthday (marlon)
as far as i could remember we rode a crazy looking bus that i didnt trust but 2 of my classmates forced me 2 go with them and so we did... 20 minutes later we stopped... i felt so nervous since at that time i wasnt that used to taking bus rides... well they had the trouble fixed and i arrived at my destination safe and sound...
october was great... nigels cousin david and his family were at amlan.. we had lots of nights together... happy.. crazy... drunk most of the time... it was nigels birthday (nov.9) and i was in my in house for the review for the board exam... i was able to spent time with him a lot during those days... i loved november so much and wished it had lasted longer....
nov27 i left dumaguete for cebu... we stayed ther til the board exam which was on dec 1 and 2...
it was soooo hard.. i didnt expect to pass... i almost lost hope... christmas was okay... my birthday was great ... my boyfriend and his family threw a party for me... i was really happy... its been a long time since i last celebrated my birthday... i couldnt ask 4 anything more... i loved my bf's gift to me...
january wasnt much to talk about... 2008 has come... the whole january passed and the results didnt come out yet... i wasnt productive this month...
february came time flew so fast little did i know that iv been with my bf for 8 months now!!! this is the first time that i never had breakups in a relationship... 10th of feb. my big secret was revealed to him... and he accepted my negative past...
its has been so long since iv gone on a date during valentines day... he took me out for lunch and dinner and midnyt snax... enjoyed it..
feb 21 - out came the results!!! looked for my name and found it!!!! hoooorrraaaahhhyy... i passed ... so did my dad... we'r officially registered nurses... thank God!!!
march 12 went to the seniors ball with naige...
spent holy week at our beach house...
march 26 was awful.. my dad and i faught... we yelled at each other and it even came to a point where he hurt me by hitting me... i left home... but by saturday my mom begged me to come home so i swollowed my pride and went home though im still hurt from what had happened...

friday (we had fun)

2007-08-10T23:32:00.000+08:00

today was a blast with my bestfriend markxander..
super blowout!!!
thanx mark ha???

not just for the
*iced coffee...
*the manhattan (martini) i cant remember but it kicked me nicely.. haha!!!
*the really killer dinner at persian palate...
*i really loved it!!
*i was sooo full yet i wanted to eat more but i wore the wrong type of jeans tonight!!!
*vegetarian adobo and avocado yogurt shake!!!
*S_I_N_F_U_L_L
and the chika marathon in barefoot... waaahh... super fun!!!

but for being there during the hard times...
the advices...
and for simply listening to me...
reminding me that im not alone...
and what im (we're) going through aint permanent...
you keep saying its just passing and it's be over soon...

you are my PRIMO (hahaha copying my paps terms now)

I want you to know no matter what happens I'll always be here for you even if you a UCB model already you might need someone REAL and TRUE to talk to.. I'll always be here..

LOVE yah!!!

pomelo

2007-08-10T23:20:00.000+08:00

i was in pamplona, (my cousin izzy called it pomelo) for almost a month..
each day there dragged.. each day was the same..

my routine was:

6:30am - breakfast with nanay and tatay (my grandparent - motherside)
7am - read my reviewer
8am - cuddle with my 1st cousins children, ayana(kim's daughter) and santino (marimel's 4month old son)
11:30am - lunch
12:30pm - warm bath
2pm - tv or dvd marathon
3pm - merienda with grandparents
4pm - cuddle with kids
5pm - tutor my cousin who's in grade 2
6pm - dinner
7pm - read my reviewer
8pm up - talk to my hubby

this went on and on from monday til friday...
except that on fridays naige pics me up and we hang out with friends from amlan and tanjay.. talk.. drink.. eat...
friday and saturday night.. i usually go home around 3am...
and wake up around 11am or 12noon..

bored or board???

2007-07-01T17:55:00.001+08:00

its finally july....
i wonder if by blogging this, i would actually make things happen...
may and june was terrible...
i didnt study for the board exam...
i ate, drank, partied, hanged out with friends.. 61 days... WASTED!!!
anyway...
my cuzin iria from U.S.is here in the philippines...
for vacation...
we enrolled ourselves to 2 hours of badminton from monday to friday... thats like from 7am-9am... bugger!!! i dont get to sleep til 12noon anymore..
well id be healthy and fit though... (i hope)
after badminton im planning to study... (i rili this wud happen)
my brain has been drained out of knowledge...
its freaking empty... its so empty that it scares me... so much...
anyway...

im into board shorts now...
going to the beach so often made me love wearing board shorts with havaianas (ofcourse) ....

bored or board???

2007-07-01T17:55:00.000+08:00

big girls dont cry by fergrie

2007-06-21T19:26:00.000+08:00

here's another song thats close to my heart these days...

Da Da Da Da
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
Your probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But Ive got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps until I'm full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they
Big Girls Don't Cry Lyrics
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

[CHORUS]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
Ill be your best friend and you'll be mine
Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if u want to
Cause I want to hold yours too
Well be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But its time for me to go home
Its getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

La Da Da Da Da Da

fashionista by jimmy james

2007-06-21T18:58:00.000+08:00

here's my latest craze... house music is sooo deadly...

Everybody line up
The show is about to start
Places, the show is about to start
You have to show a look, have a look, or give a look
Faces, beautiful
No one ugly allowed
(Laughing)

Are you ready? Here we go

Fashion is the art, designers are the gods
Models play the part of angels in the dark
Which one of you would ever dare to go against
That beauty is a trade and everyone is paid

Fashionista, how do you look?
Fashionista, how do you look?

New York, London, Paris, Milan
Tokyo, I think it's in Japan
Asia, Malaysia, Las Vegas to play
LA, if you pay my way

Fashionista, how do you look?
Fashionista, how do you look?
Fashionista, how do you look?
Fashionista, how do you look?

(Who you wearing?)
Sean John, Calvin Klein
Donna Karan's fashion line
Valentino, YSL
Ferragamo and Chanel
Holsten, Gucci, Figla, Rucci
Don't forget my Pucci
Fendi and Armani
God, I miss Gianni
Kenneth Cole, Michael Korrs
Mr. Ford I can't afford
D&G and BCBG
Looking good is never easy
Alexander Perkovich
Naomi Campbell such a bitch
I wanna be Delgada
To fit into my Prada
Oscar de la Renta
Louis Vuitton
Imitation of Christ, beauty has a price

Fashionista, how do you look?
Fashionista, how do you look?
Fashionista, how do you look?

What are you wearing?

late as always

2007-06-21T18:36:00.000+08:00

this is a very very late post...
well my pap and I are not in good terms 4 a month now...
so I thought of writing something on the card I bought for him...
well, the card said something like your little girl has grown up...
too bad I wasnt able to save a copy so I could post what I wrote but i really thought he'd be angry cause I said some pretty harsh things...
but when I gave it to him, at exactly 12:01am,
I also gave him a really tight hug that said all the love I wanted to say to him...
then he read the card,
I went back to my room,
the next day he told me the card was beautiful..
gosh! I was touched ha...
(will upload pics as soon as i can)

cant get this song outta my head

2007-06-15T11:36:00.000+08:00

love me or hate me?

2007-06-14T13:59:00.000+08:00

see this is the trouble with relationships,BREAK UPS!!!
why do they have to be bad?? cant we have mature, anger-free break ups??
do we have to include our partners friends or worse... family???
all the good times end up being a waste coz of paranoid exes giving death threats and name calling.. then we end up wanting to burn the memories even if they were good.

in ones life, we all should have a "person"
this "person" is the one who would help you in times like lets say some1 would try to kill me, my "person" would show proofs to lock my killer 4 life in the stinky eeky jails here in the philippines.. or on the other hand, my person is the one who would help me burry the body of some1 i just murdered... or drive the get away car when i go rob a bank.. =)

as i type, nelly furtado's song struck me
all good things come to an end...

then, i lost all the thoughts i had about relationships and break-ups...

so let me jump to what im currently doing...
im browsing the web for new tracks to download on limewire...

check out what i found out

crazy ex-girlfriend

i couldnt stop laughing... i couldnt resist not downloading it...

anyway... these are the tracks i downloaded today:

1. last night - p.diddy ft. keyshia cole
2. im a flirt - r.kelly ft. t-pain & t.i
3. michael buble - call me irresponsible
4. double up -r.kelly ft. usher
5. crazy ex-girlfriendv -miranda lambert
6. love, sex and pain - tank
7. losing my way - justin timberlake
8. forbidden place - dj tiesto
9. baby baby - sunblock
10. i aint fucking with you - young buck ft. snoop dogg & trick daddy

like a fire from the moon and back

2007-06-13T14:13:00.000+08:00

its been eons since my last post.
the last week of may has been a terrible pain in my "arse"
-broke up with my bf
-my parents fought
-nag layas pa ang gaga (drama)
anyway, the arse is better than ever!!! =)

naughty, naughty, naughty

2007-05-31T20:23:00.000+08:00

i went out with my mom today. we went to LEE PLAZA a mall here in dumaguete to buy stuff and to hang with my moms mother and her sisters. ok! fine.. my grandmother, aunts, and their children (my cousins). The whole barrio out for the day.
then we went to Sansrival to have snacks.
after a while the two little devils (my cousins) started to gigle.
Isabella took out her moms cam.phone and started taking videos and pictures of the girl seated behind her.
then my other cousin whispered and told me too look at the girl.. her butt crack was out and she noticed that we were looking.
I felt like I had a spotlight glaring at me.
I told my cousins to stop but they wont.
My aunts and etc. were choosing food and paying for their orders at the counter and I was stuck with my naughty cousins who wouldnt stop giggling.
I felt so embarassed for that girl.

insomnia is killing me

2007-05-31T18:54:00.000+08:00

last night really irritated me.
i wasnt able to sleep until 3.30a.m.
the bad thing is that i woke up at around 6.30a.m. and couldnt go back to sleep!!!
arrgghh...

so i researched about insomnia and found this from wikipedia:

Insomnia is a sleep disorder characterized by an inability to sleep and/or inability to remain asleep for a reasonable period.

Insomniacs typically complain of being unable to close their eyes or "rest their mind" for more than a few minutes at a time.

Both organic and nonorganic insomnia constitute a sleep disorder.

It is often caused by fear, stress, anxiety, medications, herbs, caffeine, depression, Bipolar disorder or sometimes for no apparent reason. An overactive mind or physical pain may also be causes. Finding the underlying cause of insomnia is usually necessary to cure it.

as i was reading this i tried to find out what may cause my insomnia.. before when i was in college these were the causes: stress, anxiety,caffeine.

but these days im thinking there is no apparent reason for my insomnia...I do hope Im not in depression or worse BIPOLAR

anyway hoooraahh to the coffeholic who didnt have even a single drop of coffee today

another day... wasted

2007-05-30T18:08:00.000+08:00

i wake up really late these days. today i woke up @ around 2pm with a note from my brother telling me where he was and to follow if i wanted to.
lately i've been so alone.
since the review ended and my classmates went home to dipolog, cebu, bindoy. others are now working. and some friends just dont feel like giving me a ring. or even a msg here on my blog.
i guess my brother noticed. thats why he keeps me company.
he's a really sweet brother. Gino is in 3rd yr h.s. yet he offers to pay for everything (coz he knows i aint got no MOONAAHH) .
my cuz maica gave me a job offer to work for smart while waiting for my review classes to start. i refused since i thought that i could do self-review. and so far, i haven't been reading that much.
i wanted my first job to be me volunteering as a nurse.
but since graduation, im no longer receiving allowance. BROKE. unemployed. bored. lonely. still alive and kicking though.
i regret not taking maica's job offer!!!
darn
**

ouch!!!

2007-05-29T18:12:00.000+08:00

since most of my blog friends are posting about ms.universe here's a lil' something2x that made me sigh...

it upsets me that the "suma-cum-whatever" just won ms.photogenic...she didnt even make it to the top 15.. (BOOHOO!)
Philippines won the Miss Photogenic award for the seventh time (it has won this award three years in a row since 2005).

judges:
* James Kyson Lee - actor on Heroes
* Lindsay Clubine - Deal or No Deal briefcase model
* Tony Romo - Dallas Cowboys quarterback
* Dave Navarro - rock star
* Michelle Kwan - World and Olympic figure skating champion
* Mauricio Islas - Mexican actor
* Marc Bouwer - fashion designer
* Nina Garcia - Project Runway judge and Elle magazine fashion director
* Dayanara Torres - Miss Universe 1993
* Christiane Martel - Mexican actress and Miss Universe 1953

these are very modern judges!!! REd hot dave navarro!!! whooppeee

my brother gave me a car

2007-05-28T18:24:00.000+08:00

LOL... from need for speed.. i chose the color, tint, rims and etc... and he gave me this!!! kinda dark though... but i love it!!!

my yahoo avatar

2007-05-28T18:11:00.000+08:00

isnt she pretty?

fashion: my religion

2007-05-28T17:03:00.000+08:00

if fashion was a religion..
women would be worshipping it with strong faith; even if it isn't we all are still devout followers.
when a woman loves a certain brand it's because she's comfortable in it, she feels good with it or it enhances her self-esteem like no other brand can.

on the other hand, when a woman wears a diamond stud earing, she wears it not to conceal an imperfection but to enhance her beauty.

after all

2007-05-27T16:33:00.000+08:00

here's my favorite qoute thanks to a good friend Barbie

well we didnt start out as friends..
we hated each other...
funny thing bout mortal enemies is that they end up being good friends..
just like chloe and i...
we hated each other so much before we became classmates and its weird how a bubble gum could start a really good friendship..
but the irony is that bestfriends end up hating each other, like goldy and mark, and goldy and me...

well here's the quote anyway...

"we've done terrible things to each other, but we have to forgive each other or everything we ever were will mean nothing."
-Kirsten Dunst, Spiderman 3

the problem

2007-05-26T18:28:00.000+08:00

last night was terrible..
im still in the process of getting through it but it was awful...
i was in shock, was frightened,and embarassed...

well i rushed home, went straight to bed trying to calm myself...
it didnt work...
i ended up having fever....

today im still sick...
i still feel terrible...
and i tried fighting back the tears for a couple of times since i didnt want to cry anymore... last night was enough... or so i thought....
and as im typing right now, tears drizzle down my cheek as memories come flashing through my head..

i think there's a purpose why this had to happen...

and i want to be alone for now..

sorry for this crappy post

gtg

spiderman3

2007-05-24T20:31:00.001+08:00

i loved spiderman 3... i do think its better than 1 and 2...

here's a photo of the new goblin...
i find it ironic how he has to die the same way his father died...

a look at venom's cute teeth... =)

in spiderman 3 you'll get to see what really caused uncle ben's (peter parker's uncle) death.

american idol

2007-05-24T19:39:00.000+08:00

did you like the results?
Jordin won over blake...
Blake was a great performer though.. and jordin though she had a really good voice she didnt dance a little while she sang fighter by christina aguilera... she's 17.. im sure she could move, sway some hips or whatever...
if i were to choose between jordin and blake id choose jordin too...
the performing cant beat the voice..

but my fravorite is lakisha..
i love everything about her...